Butts and Guts.

Lesson of the day: I need a motivational fitness instructor for me to really get anything out of a fitness class.

I am going to take advantage of the fitness center as much as possible this semester to get rid of my belly fat forever. I am just going to take it 5 lbs. at a time though. I went to Butts & Guts for the first time. The instructor for Butts & Guts didn't seem to be as motivational as the Spin & Core instructor was the other morning.

I am looking forward to Spin & Core tomorrow morning even if the bike seat makes my bum hurt. I felt so pumped and energized during and after Spin & Core. The instructor was really helpful and really made me feel like I, of all people, could do it.

I've been really shy about my fitness level in the past but lately I've been getting over that more and more with the help of some very wonderful friends of mine.

The urge to lose weight came to me my senior year of high school. That is when I started to feel like I was becoming overweight. Since then I have gained another 20 lbs. or so. I want to lose enough weight so that I am the same size or close to the same size I was in 10th grade.

I know that your outward image isn't supposed to matter so much and I know that it is really about the person who you are. That's the dilemma. I don't feel like my innerself and outerself match up. One wants to do certain things but the other one isn't happy with it. So I have a conflict and hopefully taking advantage of the fitness center and going to Spin & Core every Tuesday and Thursday will help me to resolve the conflict.