Let go.

Lesson of the day: let it go. If something is holding you back from doing something, let it go. If something is bringing you down, let it go.

I am in a Writing Fiction class and I love it. My professor is very entertaining and is actually a fiction writer! Yay! The best advice I've gotten from her so far is that you shouldn't think about something too much. I feel like you have to let some things go in order to not think about things too much.

I want to send in one of my short stories to a writing contest but I can't let go of the idea that all of my writing sucks and can always be better. Always, whether or not it gets good praise or awful critiques. I hate publicly sharing my writing. I think I am going to be an anonymous writer if I am going to be a writer. Hopefully in time I will be more confident in my writing. The next few years in college should hopefully polish my writing skills. I just have to put myself out there so people can read what I write and give me feedback.

Also, I have to let go of my immaturity. Not the sort of immaturity where I laugh any time somebody mentions the intimate anatomy of the human body or whenever somebody talks about excretion of bodily fluids. It's the sort where I don't really want to grow up. I'd like to have minimal responsibilities for the rest of my life. That would be boring though because having a real career, getting married and having kids all have great responsibilities.

Letting go of my immaturity is not the same as letting go of the fun though. I can still go to parties and I can still nap in the afternoon. I have to start doing things on my own and not blaming other people or things for the things I do or do not do. (I should probably work on the wordiness of my writing).

So, to start, I am going to take an internship in publishing course next semester and enter some short story contests. I should also start working on my portfolio.