Change.

So, I've been complaining about my weight for some time now and I think, no, I know, that it is time to change what I've been complaining about. The lesson is quite simple, stop complaining about something you are in total control of and change it so that it no longer is a reason to complain. 

I, Rita Raisanen, am going to take control of my weight. Once school starts I am going to be more strict on what I eat and don't eat and begin an exercise regiment. I will have the body the body that makes people call me Rita the Body. I don't want to feel uncomfortable in my own skin anymore so I am going to change it. I hate going shopping and trying on one size and having to go up in size multiple times.

It may be shallow or superficial of me to think that way but it's how I feel. I'm not proud of what I see in the mirror. People tell me I should be but I have a hard time with that. I know that I'm not the healthiest person in the world and that's what I see in the mirror, someone who is unhealthy and lazy.

So, now that I have written it down I must go through with it. I want to be happier with my body by this time next year. Hopefully next summer I can dawn a two piece without feeling uncomfortable so that I can get a good tan!

T-minus 14 days.

Lesson of the day: my junior year of college is creeping up on me.

Pretty soon I'll be able to remove sophomore from my blog title and add junior. It's exciting but kind of scary at the same time. I'm growing up and growing more responsible for every thing I do from washing my hands to paying car insurance.

I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm an...adult. I pay bills, have a car and soon will be looking for an adult job. Well, in this economy any job is admirable. I can't blame my money troubles on anyone but myself anymore. I am in full control of working and spending my money, or not spending my money. I think they call that saving, we'll see if I can master that this year.

My goals for junior year are:
1. Achieve and maintain 3.0 GPA
2. Save money and lots of it
3. Work as much as I can and still finish my school work

A little hard work and determination should make these goals a piece of cake!

Damn you, Dexter Morgan.

Lesson of the day: attractive men who play likable serial killers can be rather addicting. Take warning! If you have anything important to do I highly recommend that you don't start to watch Dexter via Netflix.

Please, don't get me wrong. I love both Netflix and Dexter but the last 2 and a half days I have devoted a large amount of my time to watching Dexter. It's like, well I guess, my life right now. I love Dexter. No matter how much I watch the show, I am never satisfied. I always need more.

I haven't really left my house for much more than food, interviews and an errand or two. I didn't have much to do while I was in Duluth anyways besides a little job hunting. I've already brought home some trophy kills, I guess you could say. Yes, there was a pun intended. HA!

I should probably take some time off from Dexter and read a book or go for a run. Where would the fun be in those options though.

Ambushes aren't easy.

Lesson of the week: using the word ambush in one sentence in one week is not as easy as you might think. I had consciously thought about using it all week. There was hardly a time to use it, not even as a joke.

However, I did manage to use detrimental a few times. Who knew that I would think of that at the time I thought of that. I'll just have to try to use a more common word, or maybe use and adjective instead of a verb. Although, ambush can be used as a verb.

I'm also going to have to write more often during the week. It turns out, if I post more to my blog in a week I feel more confident about my writing and want to write more.

A rather non-extensive vocabulary.

So. I am an English major with a small-ish vocabulary considering I am beginning my junior year at UMD. What I have decided to do is to pick a random word from a word generator for the week and try to use it as much as possible in that week and then at the end of the week I'm going to try and use it as much as I can in a blog post. 

Warning! I may or may not procrastinate and regular posting is not guaranteed. 

So, this weeks word is: ambush. Ambush, the act of concealing yourself and lying in wait to attack by surprise

It seems like it will be an easy word to incorporate into my regular vocabulary but I could be wrong.

Tower of Owen.

Lesson of the day: a little hard work and determination goes a long way.

So, the video game that my wonderfully amazing boyfriend gave me is teaching me lessons!! Ah ha! That's why he is so intelligent. He's been an avid video gamer since he was in the womb. That is more than likely an exaggeration, but you never know, anything is possible.

Back to the lesson though. I was playing the other night and gave up because I died in the Tower of Owen while I was trying to beat Medusa up. I didn't go back and try again right away. I slept on it and thought of a strategy. When I picked the game back up I restored my MP and HP and was off to the Tower of Owen to take care of some business. I wasn't going to hit the power button until Medusa had been taken care of. Half hour later, after some strategic battling, Medusa had been take care of and Desch remembered what his destiny was. It. Was. Awesome.

It may not have been the most excruciating work but it was a little time intensive and I missed out on a whole episode of Scrubs. I was determined to kick her butt and I did it. Yay!

Hate to be cliche...

but the lesson for the day is to smile even when you don't feel like it because it just might make your day a little, or a lot, better.

My boyfriend has been itching to get out of the house he's lived in his whole life all summer so last week he escaped to his house where he lives with a few of his friends. It was interesting last week without him in town. He came home for the employee screening of The Other Guys, Rotten Tomatoes gives it a 79% but I'd only give it a 26%. I thought Cats & Dogs: the Revenge of Kitty Galore deserved a higher rating from Rotten Tomatoes.

Even though he was home since Thursday night, I wasn't quite satisfied until today. All weekend I found something to be upset about. Like on Friday I was upset that it took him so long to get up and moving and come over to my house. It ended up not being so bad but at the time I wasn't okay with it. Then on Saturday night we went to see Cats & Dogs: the Revenge of Kitty Galore with my brother and sister. We hung out at my house afterwards for a while. My siblings and Jesse played Super Mario Bros. for the Wii for a while. Jesse was too stubborn to give up on one of the castles and said he would give up if he died. HE KEPT GAINING LIVES!

It got really, really boring to watch and got on my nerves. So, of course I was crabby and then any good feeling from the day had vanished for a short time.

Today, I was grumpy. The heat really got to me. It reached 97 degrees and the humidity was awful. We didn't make it long outside at all. We went to the county fair and we were going to try and stay for the demo derby but it was too hot. So we scalped our tickets we bought and got out of there. Homeward bound to our central air.

My b/f and I ended up eating dinner at his house with his dad. So good. We had pork chops on the grill and Ted's garden potatoes. Loved it! I decided to turn my frown upside down and make the best of the rest of the weekend. Sunday nights aren't for being tense and angry. Sunday nights are for relaxing and squeezing the most out of the weekend.

So, I've been told for the longest time that I can control how I feel and that I don't HAVE to be sad and upset. I can be happy with a little bit of work and effort. Sometimes happiness takes a little bit of work, it isn't always just going to happen. Even though it's pessimistic, things aren't always going to go the way you want them to and you're just going to have to suck it up.

Vikings and the Nepto Dragon.

Lesson of the day: I can get a bit more addicted to a video game than I thought.

Today, alone again, I have managed to entertain myself. America's Next Top Model Cycle 7 is on Oxygen and I am moving right along with Final Fantasy III for the Nintendo DS. I have a DSi that my boyfriend bought me last year for an anniversary present and this year he bought me a cool case and Final Fantasy. I am a little addicted and little is an understatement.

Yesterday I bravely ran away from the Bahamut on Dragon's Peak and today I put the Nepto Dragon back into a deep slumber. I think I might be a black mage for Halloween.

Oh, and Gilmore Girls is on at the right time today. There is no Secret Life marathon! Woo hoo!

Hobby hobby hobby!

Lesson of the day: a hobby or two may be essential if I don't want to die of boredom.

Today was basically my first day ALL BY MYSELF. My boyfriend went to school for the week, my sister is at camp, my younger cousin is at camp and my brother has summer school all day. So, that leaves me alone for about 8 hours a day with just about nothing to do. To make it worse, I worked 6-11pm at the theater.

I woke up at 10 am specifically to watch Gilmore Girls on ABC Family. Even though I've seen every episode of the show I still really like watching it, again and again. Instead of Gilmore Girls like I planned, there was a Secret Life of the American Teenager marathon. I watched over 5 hours of the marathon. I just got stuck. Although, I did do a few loads of laundry and tried to teach myself how to knit again. I'd knitted a little freshman year of college and I liked it. I would like to make it a hobby even if I'm not good at it. I used to think it was for old lady's and home schooled kids. I may not be good at it but I can learn.

So, it was a rather boring day without anyone around all day. I could never be a spinster or work alone.