Change.

So, I've been complaining about my weight for some time now and I think, no, I know, that it is time to change what I've been complaining about. The lesson is quite simple, stop complaining about something you are in total control of and change it so that it no longer is a reason to complain. 

I, Rita Raisanen, am going to take control of my weight. Once school starts I am going to be more strict on what I eat and don't eat and begin an exercise regiment. I will have the body the body that makes people call me Rita the Body. I don't want to feel uncomfortable in my own skin anymore so I am going to change it. I hate going shopping and trying on one size and having to go up in size multiple times.

It may be shallow or superficial of me to think that way but it's how I feel. I'm not proud of what I see in the mirror. People tell me I should be but I have a hard time with that. I know that I'm not the healthiest person in the world and that's what I see in the mirror, someone who is unhealthy and lazy.

So, now that I have written it down I must go through with it. I want to be happier with my body by this time next year. Hopefully next summer I can dawn a two piece without feeling uncomfortable so that I can get a good tan!