I've been so tired these past few days, well, I'd say weeks, that I can't tell if I am procrastinating or if I am really that exhausted that I can't muster up the energy for some reading, analyzing and writing. I would like to do my homework but without energy, I don't really have a lot of motivation. I haven't quite gotten into any rhythms or routines yet. My weeks are still too crazy and my schedule still varies from week to week so I can't even get into a routine to watch one television show.
I need to focus more on school so that I can raise my cumulative GPA, it isn't awful but it definitely isn't where I would like it to be. I want it to be above 3.0, which isn't too far away but I have to work a little harder this semester than in semesters past.
I've been relying heavily on coffee, Diet Coke and other caffeinated beverages/energy drinks to keep me awake and focused but I think it's all catching up with me this week. All I want to do is sleep so I might take the day off of work on Friday to sleep in. I could really, really use it.
I guess I did have a little bit of motivation tonight otherwise I wouldn't have posted a blog post. (I wish there was a better verb to use but there really isn't.) If only I could have used that motivation for reading some Melville or working on my Foundations of Mass Communication paper. Oh well, I guess.
On another note, I've been doing grad school research. I'm thinking about UW-Madison or UW-Milwaukee. They both seem like they have decent MLIS programs and the plus is that they offer distance learning programs too. I'm still a little unsure about what steps to take first but I've got an advising appointment next week. Hopefully my adviser has some helpful grad school knowledge. I should start talking to my professors about letters of recommendation.
Growing up is hard and confusing. And, frankly, quite tiring.
